Today is 6 mo sober and 8 mo off the cigs. Got the cigs handled, that's done and over with. Still have moments of craving and, this is funny, dreams where I wake up thinking "Oh no! I smoked last night!" The cravings are not very immediate and demanding anymore. More like hearing an old song on the radio.
Cut way down on soda, down to one every week or two instead of 5/day. That at least doesn't seem to be an addiction; I can have one once in a while when I need a wake-up and be ok. Cleaned up my act in regards to diet a lot. No more fast food, lots of veggies, etc. Not really counting calories, just trying to eat quality and not eat simply out of boredom or procrastination. Scale says I'm down 10 lb from the peak of blubbery belly. That's a good sign but I really could care less about actual weight. More concerned about how I look and feel. Would like to get the love handles and bit of belly to disappear. Really fantastically difficult. Never had to pay attn to diet before and suddenly have all kinds of sympathy for those who've fought it thier whole life.
Regular exercise has helped hugely, both with gut size management and with general attitude. Especially with no booze I need exercise to keep the attitude somewhere near sane. Rowing on the lake most every morning for 1 1/2 or 2 hours. Gets me up early which is good for me too. Need to get a plan in place for a replacement for the rowing for when winter comes. x-c skiing my best thought, but not sure if I can do the same schedule with that. It is still dark and bitter cold here at 6 in winter and I just don't see me getting fired up to roll out and ski then. Might have to try the machines at the gym.
Not sure what to do about the alcohol; I'd decided to take 6 mo off drinking and sober up and reassess. It's been six mo, I'd like to have a drink, but I do not miss being a drunken fool, being hung over most mornings, spending all my $ at the bar, etc. Worried the alcohol will prove to be like the cigs; one or two once in a while is not possible for me with cigs and I worry a drink or two will lead right back to a pint of whiskey every night. Anyway, no rush to decide. Don't think pouring a drink is the right way to celebrate 6 mo sober, so not about to do so.
The business has suffered a little from my adressing my addictions. My employee quit. Couldn't handle me sober (hell, I barely can stand me sober). I've given up on employees for now. I can't make them happy and they can't do anything well enough to suit me. If I've got to stay sober to drive in case a call comes that just makes the alcohol decision on I don't have to think about for a while. Think I may be trading chemical addictions for workaholism. Woking a little too much. I'm at about the maximum long term sustainable pace for me right now, and it is summer. One idea is to bump prices up every few months until that slows things down a little. Another that I am alreeady doing (a little) is saying no to some jobs.